The Process Begins

Well I called Akron Childrens Neurological Developmental Center as soon as I was able to compose myself. They said 10 weeks to wait. First I was shocked to learn it was soo far away but they said its the first they had ( not knowing at this time that 10 weeks for this kind of specialist isnt that long) but they would refer me to a special school, called Happy Days. About a week or two later they came over and evaulated him. They said they shared the same concerns and they wanted to get him evaluated by the whole team as soon as possible. Another devestating blow...for some reason hearing it all over again was terrible. I would often wait until everyone was sleeping and cried for hours..always thinking the worst. Would he have a girlfriend, could he talk again, is something worse going on, will he live with us forever? I blamed myself a lot, I was devoured by guilt thinking it was me. I must have done something to cause this. My biggest issue was not knowing what made the change in him and I just couldnt accept that. But the evaluation came quickly and before we knew it he was starting school, four days a week for 2 hours at a time. First off I had such a huge anxiety for him..to just leave him!!!! I cried almost the whole time with worry his first day. School was very rough at first for all of us. Then he would only cry once in the room but stop after I left..then he started walking himself to class and not saying goodbye to me. But this school was a blessing. He now points off and on, he is babbling again and he does things beside watch movies and rock on his chair. All within 7 weeks of starting school! They are a blessing there, so nice and calm with him when he can be ..not so calm at times.